Remember When?

Remember Tuesday when I was so motivated to start walking and changing my eating habits? Remember how I was so excited to make this pregnancy a lot easier by doing stretches?

Warning: If you have a hard time with blood or bodily malfunctions, you should probably stop reading.

Literally two hours later I was picking up my son from pre-school and I started bleeding heavily. Like  within minutes my clothes were soaked. I took all the kids to a friend and rushed over to my doctor that is luckily only blocks away from my friend. By this time I was in full on panic I could hardly cork my emotions to tell the nurses and front desk girls why I was there. I held it together until my old babysitter walked by and gave me a hug. I'm sure her shirt was soaked with tears by the time I let her go. I was scared. There have been two miscarriages on my husbands side of the family with in this year, I didn't want to have to go through that. I know this baby is supposed to be here!

We finally got into the ultrasound room and got the good and not so great news. Baby is doing awesome! He/She is kicking and moving like crazy. Heart beat is strong. And I'm not in any immediate danger. That's the good news. The not so great news,  I have a Sub-Chronic Hemorrhage right above the pregnancy that could move down and separate the placenta from the baby, which would cause a miscarriage. To try and prevent it from happening I had to be on bed rest for a couple days and pray that it worked. I also had to be on watch to make sure I didn't bleed so much that I bled to death.

So basically I went home scared that I was going to lose the baby or have to rush to the hospital and be stuck there for a while.

The two days dragged on. I always thought that being forced to sit down would be such a blessing, not having to feel guilty about the laundry or the dishes. Well... It was awful!  I had two wonderful ladies from our ward come and help with the kids, but I felt so guilty watching them change my little girl's diapers and having to pick up my kid's messes and I was just sitting there. My husband had to sternly tell me to sit there and suck up my pride. Yeah... Not so fun....

But it was all worth it when I went to my follow up and the hemorrhage was fading and moving away from the baby!

I still have to into the doctors weekly and take it really slow, meaning no exercise.... I have to sit down more than working around the house and limit picking up my baby (Which I'm still really bad at).  But the plus is, I have to drink a lot of water and I can still work on food goals.

And The Answer Is....

New Mommy-itis!!! (AKA Minor Muscle Damage)

Saturday I was finally able to go into a family friend Massage Therapist and have her look at my back. I showed her where the pain was coming from and she knew exactly what was going on! She even described some of the other random pains I would have too.  She pulled out a muscle chart and showed me a little tiny muscle that connects to basically every muscle in the torso and the buttocks. Lucky me, I messed mine up, so it makes everything hurt. She says she sees it a lot in moms with lots of young kids, with all the putting in carseats, high chairs, twisting, being pulled in every direction, ect. The bad news is, the pain won't totally go away until I'm done with picking up kids and let the muscles heal. And that's not going to happen for a while.

The big thing that will help me not to make the damage worse is to start rebuilding my core muscles. I was so relieved it wasn't, you can't do any exercise! So I'm going to start going back to my dance warm ups and building up the tummy I used to have before my babies. I will do this Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday when Jon does his runs. I might try to convince him to take pictures of me doing the core exercise, so I won't be pulling so many pictures off the internet. And it'll help me see my progress.

 I'm going to be starting running tonight (Last post when I said I was going to do it, I had a major pain attack and couldn't even stand...), take it slow so I don't put too much stress on the muscles.

 I was taught some stretches that will help:

The Frog leg stretch helps basically everywhere. When I first did it, I realized how much flexibility I have lost since my dance classes. And I wasn't that flexible to begin with. Anyway... I felt it everywhere and it was wonderful!!!

Swing Stretch is grabbing my knees and slowly lowering my legs to one side and then the other with my shoulders still flat on the ground. When I feel the pull on the knots, pause and stretch it out and then move on. I struggle to not roll over, but it'll come with my core muscles.

The basic lunge. I honestly don't know why I didn't think of this before my appointment, but this helps the most out of all of them.

In addition to these stretches I need to ice and hot pad my back as soon as I feel the twing coming. 

Another tip she gave me was to get a massage during my next pregnancy to make sure my muscles are moving to where they need to be and get one six weeks after the birth. I wish I had know this with my other pregnancies, especially with how close I had our three kids.

I'm so ready to get life back in gear and slowly taking care of this problem while getting fit.

Ready... Set... Go... Again!

Good news! I didn't need surgery! I got a CT Scan on Monday and they couldn't find anything, anything solid that is. They called later on Wednesday and said that one of my tests came back showing that I have strep and a bladder infection. So they think that the strep spread into my kidney and that's why I've been having so many problems. I've been on medication for half a week and I already feel so much better!

Tomorrow I'm hoping the pain will be almost 

all the way gone and I can start running.

Slow and steady right?

Water Water Water

I set out the water like planned and it actually worked! I drank it all!

I did start to feel sloshy by the end of the day, but I think my body is just learning how to adjust to a healthy amount of water.

I must confess that I haven't been super great with drinking everyday, but I am doing a lot better than I have.

Guess What?

I finally convinced my husband to let me get a treadmill! I am beyond excited!

http://www.walmart.com/ip/Weslo-Cadence-G-5.9-Treadmill/14972088

 I keep growing ovarian cysts, so to say I haven't been able to go out running is an understatement. Just going up our stairs hurts. There are good days, but I'm so afraid that if I go out running I will twist wrong (And by twist wrong I mean, just extending my stride can make my body scream) and not be able to get home in time for Jon to leave for work.

So I asked him if we could get a treadmill for my birthday and then I could try and run and not have to worry about making it home. And I get to run on bad weather days when I am finally back to good health. He finally gave in, which makes me feel a little guilty, but maybe it'll convince him to to start getting in shape too.  I love my husband so much!

My eating hasn't been great, but it hasn't been bad either. I haven't been snacking or grabbing food off the counter when it's there! I had a salad for lunch yesterday using our leftover chicken and grilled veggies. It was super yummy! Sunday I did have two servings of fajitas and I really didn't need the second at all. The eating after seven has been good except for last night, I had cake and ice cream... I am going to do better!!!

The water goal is failing too... I have the water by me, but I'm just so distracted by the kids and house work that I don't drink it. So here's a revision, because that's what this is, a learn and move on process. I'm going to set out the water that I need to drink for the day. Having that out should keep my mind on it.

Goal for the week: No eating after Seven! And drink more water!

Blog of Hope

I don't want this to come out vain, but I don't know how else to say it, so I'm going to start this blog out honest and state how I really feel.
I know I'm not fat or ugly, but I do know I'm out of shape and I am far from being healthy. I don't have control of my eating, which means I could end up getting over weight and have more health issues. My family has had someone sick almost consistantly since Christmas Break. We tried using DōTERRA Oils to get rid of the germs, but I feel like I was just using it as an excuse to not worry about how we're eating and how active, or I should say, inactive we have been.
Like I said, I know I'm not fat, but I also would like to be able to fit into some clothes that I haven't been able to since I got pregnant with my first.

So I'm hoping that this blog will help me have some accountability.

Food Goals:

-Stick to one serving each meal. I don't feel like cutting out all food except for steamed vegitables will help me be successful. So I will eat the food that we normally make, key word make, and only eat one serving. I have been in the bad habit of going back for seconds and sometimes thirds. I have lost my control and need to regain it.

-Two snacks a day- Back with the control thing. I see candy on the counter, I eat it. If there is a bowl of chips and dip I keep coming back for more. So I am going to try and make our snacks healthy and only have a set amount that we will eat. If I get hungry I can chew on some gum and that usually holds me until the next feeding time.

-Make every dinner- My family and I made a menu of foods we like to eat for this month. When we didn't have a menu, we didn't know what we wanted to eat, so my parents would grab something that they could get in a drive through. Sticking to the menu will help limit the greese and manage the quantity.

- Drink more water- We are already limiting our soda, but we still aren't drinking more water. So I'm going to be keeping a water bottle with me.


Activity Goals:

-I am going to start running every morning, except for Sundays. My inlaws are bringing a stepper this weekend, so weather won't be an issue. I will be following the couch to 5K program and only giving my self 2 days to delay moving onto the next week time.

-Ten weeks I want to be able to run a 5K, if I can't afford to I'll ask some friends to run one with me.



I will be writing on this blog weekly. I am hoping that this will bring me accountability. I am going to write this like no one is reading, but if it will help someone, I am going to leave this open to the public. Everyone has struggles and one of mine is health. Just because I have kids, doesn't mean I have to let my body go. It should be, because I have kids I need to help my body be able to go. It makes sense in my head :)