Ready... Set... Go... Again!

Good news! I didn't need surgery! I got a CT Scan on Monday and they couldn't find anything, anything solid that is. They called later on Wednesday and said that one of my tests came back showing that I have strep and a bladder infection. So they think that the strep spread into my kidney and that's why I've been having so many problems. I've been on medication for half a week and I already feel so much better!

Tomorrow I'm hoping the pain will be almost 

all the way gone and I can start running.

Slow and steady right?

Another Speed Bump...

This week has been pretty bad... My cysts aren't going away and are coming full force. 

I finally called my doctor on Wednesday, because I haven't been able to sleep a night without waking up multiple times, because of the pain.  The on call nurse said that I'm going to need surgery and set me up with a consultation appointment. So needless to say, I'm not running this week... or next week...

BUT I have been better at not eating snacks laying around. Not great, but not bad either! Jon has really been helping me stay on top of it too. He makes sure he doesn't make me dessert after eight and when he makes an after school snack he reminds me that I'm being good. I have been bad at justifying sweets lately when Jon gets home late... Luckily he hasn't been late the last couple days!

I read on a friends blog, "we're not in control of anything, except our attitudes." And it's really been helping me this week. I catch myself grumbling about how unfair it all is, "I'm trying to be good at exercising, but my body is broken!" Yeah I know, I'm a drama queen. But then I think of this quote and it's helped me move on. Thanks Cami!!!

Get Real!!!

Today kinda slapped me in the face with how bad I've been with my eating habits after I only ate a big bowl of dutch oven  refried beans for lunch. It was delicious at the time, but now, an hour later I feel gross.

Smack!!!

Yup I need to change... Not so drastic that I feel like all I eat is rabbit food, but I really need to worry about eating healthier. And not try to baby myself and think that taking it super sonic slow will help, because it's not. There has to be a noticeable change.

SO! Here's the plan, I am only eating one serving of food, and that serving cannot equal the size of my plate, like my plate did last night... But what the label says. I know I said that before, but it just didn't happen...

 I am going to make a new lunch and dinner menu for our family and it will be detailed with veggies/fruit in every meal. I will allow one take out meal every other week and even then I will not stuff my face.

 No food after 8:00PM! Even if we have a late dinner, I cannot cheat and use it as an excuse to have dessert at 8:30.

I've been really good at only one snack a day, so I'm keeping that rule, but I am going to make sure that it is a snack that isn't super salty or full of sugar.

I am going to set out my daily goal water amount (8 8oz cups a day) on the counter and drink it!

I think my biggest problem is that I haven't shared this with my family, my husband knows, but not my Mom and Dad. My husband and I are living with my parents while we are waiting for him to finish up school, so we share meals a lot of the time, and a lot of the time someone will just pick up something and bring it for dinner or dessert. We usually have some kind of treat sitting on the counter that someone made and I'll count that as my snack and it usually makes me more hungry or crave more chocolate. So I take full responsibility on the lack of communication. I hope everyone will be home tonight, if not tomorrow, so we can have this talk.

I know that I've been bad about following my goals, but I've turned over a new leaf and will follow it!

Love Hate Relationship

Before my run yesterday. I just wanted to give a shout out to Active Bands, one of my best friend's Aunts make headbands that don't slip and they're amazing!!!! I love mine so much, because all growing up my headbands would never last and always fall off. When I started running my bangs would always get in my face and I would feel so blah. I got a couple of these for an early Christmas present and fell in love. I've never had a problem with these falling off EVER!

Today was Jon's first day of running!

We even got him some new running shoes.

No this is not how he looks when he runs :)

I asked him how he felt and he said, "Hmmm... Sweaty..." So That just shows how much we love running. Sarcastic Symbol!

We're waiting for the day that everyone says will come eventually. The day when we don't hate running. I do love, however, how much better I feel about myself when it's done. I'm still in the stage of run then walk, then run and walk. But I was looking at Couch to 5K website and the non-stop running is coming up fast! I can't wait until my body is completely healed and I can actually sign up for a 5K and have a goal date in sight!

So running, it's a love hate kinda thing, but it'll get better soon... I hope :)

Water Water Water

I set out the water like planned and it actually worked! I drank it all!

I did start to feel sloshy by the end of the day, but I think my body is just learning how to adjust to a healthy amount of water.

I must confess that I haven't been super great with drinking everyday, but I am doing a lot better than I have.

It's Here!!!

It came!!!! My treadmill came!!! 

We set it up and let the kids walk on it. They were pretty excited, I didn't have the heart to tell them that they won't be able to get on it whenever they want to.

Jon even told me that he is going to start running with me! I never thought that he would ever say that.

I started running last night and it actually went awesome!!! I started with my five minute warm up walk and my calves were burning! I thought that it was a bad sign, until I realized that I hadn't fixed the manual tilt of the treadmill, hahaha! After my "intense" warm up, I fixed the tilt and started running ninety seconds and walking two minutes. I didn't feel any pain in my knee the whole run! But my cyst did start burning the second to last round of the run. I pushed through it and even did an extra ninety seconds of running, trying to get to two miles. But I didn't get there... 

It was kinda strange running and not being able to look at something and we couldn't listen to our book like we were planning on, because our speakers wouldn't blast higher than the sound of the treadmill. I'll have to find something else to keep my attention while running, since our iPod died.

Anyway... I'm super excited to be able to start my love hate relationship with running again!

Guess What?

I finally convinced my husband to let me get a treadmill! I am beyond excited!

http://www.walmart.com/ip/Weslo-Cadence-G-5.9-Treadmill/14972088

 I keep growing ovarian cysts, so to say I haven't been able to go out running is an understatement. Just going up our stairs hurts. There are good days, but I'm so afraid that if I go out running I will twist wrong (And by twist wrong I mean, just extending my stride can make my body scream) and not be able to get home in time for Jon to leave for work.

So I asked him if we could get a treadmill for my birthday and then I could try and run and not have to worry about making it home. And I get to run on bad weather days when I am finally back to good health. He finally gave in, which makes me feel a little guilty, but maybe it'll convince him to to start getting in shape too.  I love my husband so much!

My eating hasn't been great, but it hasn't been bad either. I haven't been snacking or grabbing food off the counter when it's there! I had a salad for lunch yesterday using our leftover chicken and grilled veggies. It was super yummy! Sunday I did have two servings of fajitas and I really didn't need the second at all. The eating after seven has been good except for last night, I had cake and ice cream... I am going to do better!!!

The water goal is failing too... I have the water by me, but I'm just so distracted by the kids and house work that I don't drink it. So here's a revision, because that's what this is, a learn and move on process. I'm going to set out the water that I need to drink for the day. Having that out should keep my mind on it.

Goal for the week: No eating after Seven! And drink more water!