More Frustration...

On Monday I went to the doctors again, because I was having pains in my sides again. This Christmas break I had pain in my back, side, and lower abdomin. It was like menstral cramps, except a lot worse. My doctors did an ultrasound and I had a 4cm cyst on my overy. Then a couple weeks later a peircing pain hit me while I was sleeping. Apperently it was a good pain, it popped. Yeah, I guess that's good. The pain fadded and eventually left. 

Then last week the pain started coming back and getting more intense.  So my knee is feeling better, but my body started hurting. Monday I went into the Doc again and I have another cyst, but this time it only measured 3cm. The pain actually felt like it was getting better yesterday morning, but once again, last night my body started hurting really bad. I think that it burst. 

So I haven't been able to run... again... BUT I have been good with eating. We haven't been sticking to our menu, like at all this week, but I have been pretty good with portion control. I think I need to specify my portion control goal. So-

GOAL: I will follow the serving suggestion listed on the labels. If I am making the food, which I usually do, I will dish myself less than I usually do. I am limiting myself to one snack a day, so I can have a small dessert after dinner. I will not have dinner after seven.

So to sum it up. This week has been kinda frustrating, but not a total crash and burn.

First Run

I've only ran once this week...
 My run on Tuesday was great! I ran thirty seconds walked ninty. I didn't struggle at all! My only pain was the blisters forming on the back of my feet. I felt great all day, the run gave me energy and helped my attitude! I didn't over eat and was aware of everything I chose to eat.  Jon brought me a treat from the store and I told him I would have to wait another day, because I had already had dessert for the day. I even was planning on running the next day.
Wednesday I woke up and my knee was hurting so bad. For those that don't know, a couple weeks before Jon and I got married, my knee popped out of place while I was getting ready for my dance final. My knee has popped out several times since then. I decided to give my body a day break and let it get used to the shock of exersising agian. I struggled to control what I ate and I was frustrated that I wasn't able to run that morning. My knee was really screaming at me throughout the day, but started to settle down at night. So I decided to try running again Thursday Morning. But Wednesday night Elizabeth was up all night long.
Thursday morning came too soon. We had a long night and I decided getting some sleep would be more benificial than getting a run in. But combining no run and hardly any sleep really made me struggle with food. I didn't have control over what I ate. My body kept telling me I needed food for energy and I gave in. My mom brought cookies and instead of eating just one I ate two and a half. Instead of trying to eat something healthy, I ate junk... I am super disappointed with myself.
Friday- Today is really rough. We had an even harder night last night. Jon and I could not get Elizabeth to calm down. We think she's having a hard time, because she's eating too much at dinner. She hasn't been signalling us that she's full, she just keeps eating. I thought she was just having growth spirts, but if it's upsetting her I don't think she's just getting distracted and just eating what we fed her. Anyway... We didn't even get two hours of sleep last night. I finally was able to get her to go to sleep at seven this morning, so the run didn't happen again... I've been better today at eating though! Of course being busy getting ready for the Blue and Gold Banquett and my in-laws coming has helped. My body has been begging for sugar, but I'm fighting it.

Wish me luck!

Blog of Hope

I don't want this to come out vain, but I don't know how else to say it, so I'm going to start this blog out honest and state how I really feel.
I know I'm not fat or ugly, but I do know I'm out of shape and I am far from being healthy. I don't have control of my eating, which means I could end up getting over weight and have more health issues. My family has had someone sick almost consistantly since Christmas Break. We tried using DōTERRA Oils to get rid of the germs, but I feel like I was just using it as an excuse to not worry about how we're eating and how active, or I should say, inactive we have been.
Like I said, I know I'm not fat, but I also would like to be able to fit into some clothes that I haven't been able to since I got pregnant with my first.

So I'm hoping that this blog will help me have some accountability.

Food Goals:

-Stick to one serving each meal. I don't feel like cutting out all food except for steamed vegitables will help me be successful. So I will eat the food that we normally make, key word make, and only eat one serving. I have been in the bad habit of going back for seconds and sometimes thirds. I have lost my control and need to regain it.

-Two snacks a day- Back with the control thing. I see candy on the counter, I eat it. If there is a bowl of chips and dip I keep coming back for more. So I am going to try and make our snacks healthy and only have a set amount that we will eat. If I get hungry I can chew on some gum and that usually holds me until the next feeding time.

-Make every dinner- My family and I made a menu of foods we like to eat for this month. When we didn't have a menu, we didn't know what we wanted to eat, so my parents would grab something that they could get in a drive through. Sticking to the menu will help limit the greese and manage the quantity.

- Drink more water- We are already limiting our soda, but we still aren't drinking more water. So I'm going to be keeping a water bottle with me.


Activity Goals:

-I am going to start running every morning, except for Sundays. My inlaws are bringing a stepper this weekend, so weather won't be an issue. I will be following the couch to 5K program and only giving my self 2 days to delay moving onto the next week time.

-Ten weeks I want to be able to run a 5K, if I can't afford to I'll ask some friends to run one with me.



I will be writing on this blog weekly. I am hoping that this will bring me accountability. I am going to write this like no one is reading, but if it will help someone, I am going to leave this open to the public. Everyone has struggles and one of mine is health. Just because I have kids, doesn't mean I have to let my body go. It should be, because I have kids I need to help my body be able to go. It makes sense in my head :)